I wish I hadn’t opened it. Now I’m a mess. It is more than double what it could reasonably be expected to be. I don’t have a prayer of paying it this month even if I were the praying sort.

Fear — What if this is just one curve in the downward spiral to hell that I find our finances in? What if we end up homeless in the street raiding dumpsters behind restaurants to feed the kids? What if this gets worse instead of better?

Rage — I told them to turn those damned electric mattress pads off when they get up in the morning. I told them to turn the damn lights off when they leave a room. What is the matter with them? Why doesn’t anyone listen to me?

Reason — This can not be due to electric mattress pads, mostly because it is the natural gas portion of the bill that is from hell. It must be something else. Get to the bottom of it. Fix it. All is not lost.

Bewilderment — We just replaced the heating and air system. This is a brand spanking new furnace that should be using half the gas the old one used. Instead it is using double. Or is it the water heater? I’ve been thinking I smelled gas every time I’ve been in the utility room lately. Did I really bake that much the week of Christmas? Is my oven screwed up? How can this be when we weren’t even home for a week during the holidays? WTF?

Fear again — Maybe we got screwed when we bought the new furnace.

Reason again — Nah. The electric bill really was cut in half when we ran the air conditioner after getting the new system so they weren’t lying about that. It must be something else.

Irrational Worries — There really is a God and He hates me.

Plan — Figure this out. Write numerous articles about it. First find out how much power two electric mattress pads and one electric blanket use. Figure out if it would be cost-effective to buy timers to put them on so they aren’t running 24/7 and causing me to rage at my kids and spouse every afternoon when I discover them still on. Call the furnace guys to come look at their installation and make sure it’s been hooked up properly. Write an article on furnace maintenance. Call utility company to come read the meter again and check for a gas leak. Look into replacing the water heater and write an article about water heaters. Figure out how to bake Christmas cookies on the grill outside and write an article about that.

Conclusion — Go back to bed and try again tomorrow.